Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Those sleepless nights because you made me smile,
Are now be replaced with sleepless nights thinking the history; us.
I hope those stars are now,
Could make you smile again because I trust them; to keep shining on you.
It's so strange of me, to be like this.
Welp, I have promised myself to let you us go by the end of this October. It's pretty hard to do this; living my life without thinking about you anymore.
Don't worry, I am getting used to this again; late night writing and some depressive days. I really hope you would come by the day I was about leaving this World. I tried my best to not make you worried before this. Haha.
I can't believe I was hoping for someone who doesn't even know my name, to save me one more time. But it's okay, to feel safe with you doesn't mean I give you the same comfort like you gave to me.
Eh, hye!
I was listening to For You by BTOB. It somehow makes me thinking about you because I watched CAFK when we were tangled; something we can't make once more.
Do not talk about GTLG. It even gives me tears in each scene. I don't know, maybe it's just me who always tends to be too sentimental.
I don't blame on you. You had known how my mental was abused since then (or you actually don't?). I tend to get attached to someone you gives me much comfort. I slowly sounded like a psych when I can't move on.
Got to go. I have a slide need to be done for tomorrow night lecture with my student. You know him, a Sunni brother from DK, a year older than me.
And of course, I don't want my sisters found me crying in my bedroom while doing Science SPM slide, haha. I don't feel like sleeping tonight. After doing slide, I feel like finishing all of my works for next week and watching GTGL for the last time until I can totally move on from you :)
Allah bless you and your famjily, elok-elok belajar. I've dropped fom my previous university to go to a new institute. Just wanna let you know. Well-- that's all.
I hope what I'd written for us,
Could make you smile; the way I smile.
And I hope you still keep the flower; I'd given.
Lailah Saedah.
