The future I am afraid of

 Hallo Hallo it's been a long time leh hahaha. 2024 dy.

The future I am afraid of, 

Swimming through the uncertainty,

Going on without looking back,

Sticking and still hoping for my past,

To stick around and move with me,

As I pass by things I am familiar with.

Macam ni tau, tahun ni awal tahun haritu dah dapat offer letter daripada Saudi and I don't know what to do with that information. Hahaha. I am currently in my second year, I have a problem with management where we must move out by this March, I have a lot of assignments and projects that need to be done, having a tiny bit of happiness about someone I could never have, also burning feeling seeing someone I was impossibly get with someone else. Hahahhaa.

Dia macam serabut gila, tapi ok.

Aku dah minta tangguh untuk pergi ke Saudi tu ke Ogos ni, tapi kena tanya juga lecturer aku berapa banyak kali aku boleh tangguh study kat sini dan tengok balik perjanjian macam mana. 

I am afraid of moving out into a house with people I am not familiar with, going to another country leaving all things I have built here, starting from 0 and failing hard.

Idk I said people who never changed won't grow. We all are afraid of new things. We all are afraid of something we don't know.

I pray for Allah to make it easy for us even when I don't know what I must do or what I will face, He knows me well and will put and end for everything I am facing rn.

Maybe I am too attached to everything I have now. I should learn and study hard to let things go.